Hollie's Happenings
The Color of You...

I saw you there
cascading white snow
In a black leather jacket
you were the one, I know

She's a green eyed girl
with long blonde hair
Painted pink nails
it felt right to stare

With frozen breathe
you said hi to me
Feeling pink inside
we were meant to be

He had dark brown hair
dark brown eyes
In faded blue jeans
we couldn't say good byes

2 hearts on fire
fires so red
2 hearts became one
some day we'd be wed

Riding home on the train
I was feeling so blue
Don't worry he said
someone loves you

The color of you
The color of me
2 colors came together
Together it makes we

It creates and it grows
this is were it lead
The color of love
The color of red

The story of how Bryan and I
met in Chicago in 1985
My Happenings
I like it when you sleep with me
Your hand clasping mine.
Then gently you loom over me,
Bend your head to meet my lips.
Or, when you think I'm asleep,
Your fingers trace my lips, my cheeks,
Down my face...
With a sigh, you carefully turn me...
So we lay like spoons,
Your body pressed against mine,
Tenderly you wrap me in your arms
With your lips in my hair
You whisper, "I love you."
I like it when you sleep with me.
I can pillow your head on my chest.
I can touch your skin, and trace
Your eyebrows, or your nose.
Sometimes, if I just lay there
With my arms around you,
You'll go to sleep,
Lulled by the sound of my heartbeat.
I like it when you sleep with me...
Even when it means waking up
Not sure which body part is mine.
Funny, how in sleep we struggle to get closer.
So we awaken, tangled by the quilts into one creature...
I like it when you sleep with me!
Author Unknown

Something I found one day and just loved it.
Crimes of the heart

We traveled 2000 miles
to the land of sin
To make a new life
As man and wife

When life does not happen
the way you had dreamed
A separation of souls
Would ruin our goals

For many years we
were the best of friends
Standing the test of time
Not knowing our crime

Crimes of the heart
we were guilty of
Crimes of passion
what we had was love

Being back together
we hoped for again
Being back together
would never happen

For Bryan, my friend, husband
and would have been future
daddy to my little girl.
"To Walk Alone"

To walk alone is to stand alone,
One wolf walks alone into the night,
For the lone wolf stands with pride,
For all she has achieved in her life,
Because no one stands in her way or by
her side.
"Author Unknown"

This is so me.
Guest Book for
Bryan Robert Duffin


March 21, 2006
All i can say is what i know...This was a good man. To Hollie, Dawn, and the
rest of his family I'm sorry for your loss.  
Ashley Higgins (Johnson Bayou, LA)

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March 20, 2006
Hollie and Family,

I was reading messages on Classmates.com, and came across your message.
I believe I went to grade school with Bryan. It has been many, many years
since I'd last seen him. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers
during this difficult time in your life. Loosing such a young man is such a
tragedy.
With deepest sympathy,
Christine (Augustyn) Schuzer  
Chris Schuzer (Wheaton, IL)

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March 17, 2006
My heart is broken with sadness with the loss of my new son-in-law to be
again after many, many years of separation he was looking forward to being
a new daddy and wife of my daughter Hollie. Words can not explain this
sudden tragedy. Only time will heal but the memories will always be there.
God works in strange ways but I believe that good things will happen. Love,
Helen Cordell...Hollie's mother.  
Helen Cordell (Las Vegas, NV)

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March 17, 2006
To my dearest friend, husband and future daddy...I will always love you and
your family. You will truly be missed!
Rest in peace and we will meet again someday.  
Hollie  (Las Vegas, NV)

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March 17, 2006
My deepest apologies to Hollie and the rest of the family. I didn't know
Bryan, but Dawn is a good friend of mine and I feel the loss and the pain
through her. I wish you all the best, and may God rest his soul.  
Kim Critser (Eddyville, KY)  

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March 15, 2006
My deepest sympathies go out for Bryan's family and friends. I did not
know him, but of him, through my friend Hollie. My heart breaks for her and
Sara at this time. My prayers and well-wishes go out for all involved in this
sad moment in time.  
Ellen Jackson (N Las Vegas, NV)

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March 14, 2006
My thoughts and prayers go out to Bryan's family, friends and my dear
friend Hollie. May God give each of you the strength needed to carry
forward in such a heart-tugging time.  
Lisa (Tulsa, OK)  

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March 14, 2006
My thoughts and prayers are with Bryan and his family. It was nice to see
Bryan at Thanksgiving '05 and we were all glad to have you join our family
again. May god bless you on your new journey in life, you will truly be
missed...  
Kathy Zagorski - August (Crestwood, IL)  

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March 13, 2006
I never had the chance to meet Bryan. From what I had learned about him,
I would have been a lucky person to know such a great guy. He touched the
heart of my friend Hollie and for that he was a wonderful man. His memory
will be cherished.

With deep sympathy,  
Christie Parrish (Henderson, NV)

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March 13, 2006
We are so sorry! WE did not know Bryan, but heard, and know how happy he
would have made, our dear, best friend Hollie. We are in deep shock, and
our prayers are with you!
God Bless you
love the Kinney Family  
Cindy Kinney (Boulder City, NV)  

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March 13, 2006
My heartfelt deepest sympathies to the entire family on your loss.
My heart breaks, for you Hollie, more than ever. I know how much Bryan
loved you and Sarah, and how much he couldn't wait to marry you this past
Saturday. He will always be with you, smiling down and protecting you with
his love. I'm so very sorry for your loss.  
Sandra Bonadonna (Las Vegas, NV)

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March 13, 2006
My deepest condolences. Be strong.  
Mike Potter (Las Vegas, NV)  

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March 13, 2006
To the family of Bryan and especially to Hollie my deepest sympathies to
all of you.  
Jane Senna (Las Vegas, NV)  

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March 13, 2006
Janet,
With our deepest condolences, you are in our prayers.

Love, Mary & Tom  
Mary Gibbons (Antioch, IL)  

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March 13, 2006
Bryan...ive always looked at him as my brother. I will love you aways, you will
be missed way more then you can ever possibly know.  
Dawn Cordell (DownersGrove, IL)  
Bryan - Thanksgiving 2005
The last time I ever got to see him.
My husband and friend for 21 years.
He passed away March 2006
Things just change, for good, for bad...forever changing.
What to do, how to feel, what to say?
Life is too short and we have to make the best of each and every day.
It's too precious to just let it slip away.
Bryan Robert Duffin    
Duffin, Bryan Robert age 36, beloved son of Robert S. Duffin and Janet
Clark, loving brother of Randy, cherished uncle of Audie, dear nephew and
cousin and a friend to all. Funeral service Wednesday, March 15th, 9 a.m.
at Mt. Auburn Funeral Home, 4101 S. Oak Park Ave., Stickney.
Visitation Tuesday from 2 p.m. to 8 p.m. Interment Mt. Auburn Cemetery.
Published in the Chicago Sun-Times on 3/12/2006.  
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Friday, March 10, 2006
Written by my sister Dawn.

Here's the story....21 years ago my sister met this guy...Bryan..her
first love...which became my brother....they had gotten married 5 yrs
to the day that they met.  After that, they moved to Las
Vegas...unfortunately, not too long after they moved there, they
didn't get along anymore, and Bryan moved back to Illinois, and they
got divorced.  But nothing was ever really bitter between them, and
they always kept in touch, and I always talked to him also.  This had
gone on for 14 yrs....My sister remarried once, and divorced...and
after that she had a little girl....(who will be 2 on this March 15th,
2006)....everytime she came to visit Illinois..(she still lived in Vegas
all this time)  her and Bryan would spend time together.  Come to
find out a few months ago, after she was here in Illinois for
thanksgiving, they decided to get remarried, he was going to sell the
condo (the one they had bought together way back when they first
married...yes, he still lived there all that time) and buy a house and
raise her daughter there....Now..isn't that a fairytale?  How awesome
is that?  They have been divorced 14 yrs and were going get back
together...my sister was going to get the family she always
wanted....and the man she always loved, even after all this time.

The plan was for my sister to pack all her stuff up..(which she did)
and he was going to fly out to Vegas on March 10th at 830am...they
were going go get the marriage license that day and get married on
Saturday, March 11th 2006.  Then spend a few days out there and
then my sister was going to fly (with her daughter) back to Illinois on
Wednesday, March 15th...(her daughters b-day) and Bryan was going
to drive the moving truck back to Illinois on Tuesday...the day before
my sister left for Illinois.  I couldn't wait for her to get here!  I was
so happy that my sister was moving back to Illinois...that's all I
thought about.

Then....yesterday....March 9th...around 630pm my phone rings....I
answer it....the man on the other end says to me...."is dawn there?"  I
said "this is"... he says to me..."you don't know me but have you talked
to your sister today?"...I say.."who is this?".... he says "Ron....Bryans
father and I have been trying to get a hold of her all day.....Bryan was
found dead this morning about 6am...(his father lived in the same
building across the hall always went over there in the morning...he
found him)  On march 8th, Bryan messaged my sister all day saying
that he loved her, couldn't wait to see her, they were getting
married in 3 days, he was going see her in 2 days...he was so happy.  
that same evening...she called him at 932pm...he said he didn't feel
good, he was in the bathroom, he would call her right back in 5
mins............he never did.......he was found in the bathroom passed away
about 9 hours later.


WHY?  WHY?  WHY?   Why does this happen?  this wasn't the
"plan"....everything my sister dreamed about was shattered  all
lost.....all gone.....forever......Bryan was her first love....and my brother....
Sara at Bryan's grave site.